Focused or Diffuse?

Dear Friends,

If you wondered what happened to me…  well, no need to worry, I am still suffering from personhood.

This dynamite choice of  words is from the book The Fault in our Stars by John Green, which Time called “damn near genius”. Augustus tells Hazel (two young people struggling with cancer who fall in love) that his last girlfriend is no longer among the living: “Caroline is no longer suffering from personhood.”

I am not suffering THAT much and I am definitely happy to be alive, but my life has been quite rough lately.

Mental and emotional health issues have leashed out again in my very close environment, hurting people I love and myself in various ways.

After months in which my son’s increasingly severe psychotic OCD became unbearable, he is now finally hospitalized. We had to force him into hospitalization but now he is relieved to be there. Let’s hope he’ll get the right treatment and eventually be able to begin living his life and making use of his brilliant brain.

Further, my best friend, who is coping with bipolar disorder, is going through a major depressive phase. To see a person suffer so much, especially if he/she is someone you are very close to, really hurts.

Then, I am moving flats again (one of the main reasons I decided to leave the place I was living in with my son and to move to another flat without him, was to force him out and into the hospital. His psychiatrist helped us. I say “us” because in the end this step will help both my son and me to begin anew.) And I am struggling to make a living. Fortunately, I myself am receiving (state-funded) psychological support, which helps me function and remain sane in these crazy times.


And now I would like to share my latest learning activity and the link to the coolest (free!!) online courses with you:

Coursera – the best MOOCs ever.  Academic level courses – fun, challenging, and rewarding.

The latest course I took: Learning how to Learn: Powerful mental tools to help you master tough subjects. (The title of this post, Focused and diffuse modes of learning, is one of the topics covered in the course.)

Also check out their other courses. I’m sure you’ll find something of interest.



12 thoughts on “Focused or Diffuse?

  1. Wow ! A Heila sighting ! I have been thinking about you for quite a while, even going to send you an email this weekend and, lo and behold, you appeared. I


    1. ….was worried. I am so pleased that your son is finally being treated after so long and that you are making a new start with your move and courses. Sorry to read about your friend Heila. I am sure that he/she appreciates your friendship deep down.
      Big hug to you my friend. Ralph xox ❤


  2. Heila, Tubularsock’s heart goes out to you and your son and friend. I am happy that you are ok personally even though life is a bit messed up. I’d say be strong but you are already that ten fold so just be.

    Glad you are back on your blog.


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